Baby, Kiss Me Before Our Time Runs Out

Well, here I am…updating..finally!

In about 20 minutes, my boyfriend is coming over to stay the night. I am no longer single. I have found someone who treats me just like I am supposed to be treated. I have found someone who calls me beautiful any chance he gets. I have found someone who enjoys hugging and kissing me just as much as I enjoy it. For the first time in a long time, I am happy.

52 days since I finished student teaching.
34 days since graduation.

Here I the real world. Boy is it wonderful! I landed a long term substitution position at a middle school in a nearby school district. It is a PE job, but I am getting my “foot in the door” for further opportunities. I also found out two days ago that I passed the PLT (Principles of Learning and Teaching) test. I passed the PRAXIS II a month ago. What does this mean? IT MEANS I AM OFFICIALLY A CERTIFIED TEACHER! I have done it. I have finally reached my goal!

This just goes to show you that when you let go of toxins, you allow great things to take their place. I have truly come a long way and I know that it was my Heavenly Father’s doing.

Until next time,

Fin (and happy Friday)! 


Feel The Way On Your Skin, No One Else Can Feel It For You <3

Here I am, sitting in my bedroom watching The Carlina White Story on Lifetime. I am back in Greenwood. I am single…

I am single, and I am finally okay with it. Back in May I told my boyfriend that I wasn’t happy and that I was leaving him. And for the first time ever, I didn’t back out of it. Sorry the lack of updates, but I have been super busy this summer. Once I moved all of my belongings back to Greenwood, I started working full time. I worked at a private preschool here in Greenwood 9-6pm every weekday. And now? I have started the 2013-2014 school year…STUDENT TEACHING. The students return to school this coming Tuesday, but I have been going to meetings and setting up the classroom since last week. Graduation in 119 days! I CANNOT wait. Lander University’s Early Childhood Department is the WORST establishment I have ever been apart of. No exaggeration needed. My blood boils pipping hot for dislike of most of the women employed in that department. 

Anyway, before I get too worked up.. *breathe* 

I am student teaching in a 1st grade classroom. I was originally in a 2nd grade, but they did some switching around because my teacher was moved to 5th grade. I am beyond thrilled that I have 1st grade though. 

Well, I have church in the morning and I still need to shower, so it’s time for bed. I will update more later.

Until next time,


“You’re going to miss me by my walk, You’re going to miss me by my talk”

I’m not quite sure where I should start this update…considering how long it’s been I suppose diving right in, wouldn’t be a bad idea.

Guess what? The semester is OVER! Six classes, 100 clinical hours, and 3/4 undesirable/unfair professors later, I’ve finished the HARDEST semester ever. Managed a solid 3.56 gpa. Wish I would have done better…considering I know I deserved better. Alas, I have no choice but to go with it. I’ll just be happy for being able to pull dean’s list for the second semester in a row.

I found out I’ll be student teaching in second grade starting in August. I’m a little apprehensive about it, but I know I’ll be okay. My cooperating teacher is a male…I’ll be okay with that too. This past semester, I had first grade at one of the more desirable schools in the district. I loved the environment there. Some students were a little rough around the edges, but they were all so sweet and sad to see me leave.

I’m still living with my boyfriend. It’s still okay…I just wish something would something would change with us. No engagement, obviously. Ugh. Everyone else is though… my younger sister!? Really?!? My boyfriend needs to get with the program or I’m OUT!

Not working right now. It’s killing my bank account. I’m searching all over for babysitting jobs. I had one from but the woman mysteriously disappeared or something. weird.  hmm what else?

Oh I got a new phone. iPhone 4s and I absolutely LOVE  it. I guess my boyfriend is good for something..he let me take his upgrade 🙂

Well, I would love to keep the update going but I’m not feeling good at all. Allergies stink! Since I’ve moved down here, they have  been even worse. I actually threw up twice tonight because of the sinus drainage. yuck.

Until next time,


One Step At A Time

Pheew, where should I start? It’s Sunday night and I’m not doing homework or lesson planning…wonder why? Because…IT’S WINTER BREAK!!! I have been waiting for this since school started back in September. I received 4 A’s and 1 B this semester. I worked incredibly hard, and I think it showed it. I’m hoping to get on the Dean’s list! I’m excited because I have one more semester of classes in the spring, and then student teaching next fall…then GRADUATION this time next year! Woo! My clinical experience this semester was great! I was required to spend 50 hours in the prekindergarten class that I was assigned to. I ended up spending over 80 hours though! I’m also going back Tuesday to their Christmas party. I’m going to miss those kiddies 😦

I would say that things are great with my boyfriend…except he pissed me off earlier today. Ugh. I’m still living with him, but sometimes I truly wish that I weren’t. He makes it so hard for me to love him at times, and I don’t even think he realizes it. Of course, NO ENGAGEMENT. Doesn’t surprise you, does it? I’m about to just quit wanting it. I just don’t understand what I’m supposed to do.


Why can’t he be the king I know he is? The king I see inside

It’s Sunday night and I’m sitting on the couch watching “The Lion King” while my boyfriend sleeps peacefully in our bedroom. He goes back to school tomorrow. Well, his students return tomorrow-so it’s the first official day.I’m still in quite a shock of me passing the PRAXIS 1 Math. It feels too good to be true. Knowing that I’ll be completing 50 hours of clinicals this semester is overwhelmingly exciting!. What excites me even more, is knowing that this is technically my last first day or classes. Because next year, I’ll be student teaching and weeks away from graduating. It’s weird to think about where I’ve been and compare it to where I am and where I’m going.

Well, I’ve lost my urge to update so this post is done for now. Until next time,


I want to set the world on fire, until it’s burning bright for you

My apologies for the long absence. 

Boy, have a lot of things changed since my last update though. Not quite sure where to start, so I’ll just start the wonderful news that I received this morning at around 8:36am. I PASSED THE MATH PRAXIS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You know what the means? I can FINALLY screen into the program for the Fall semester! Saying I am excited would be quite an understatement. I had the idea to wake up early and get to waffle house for a nice breakfast before my 7:30 appointment time for the test. I then drove us to Greenville for the test. We spent some time walking around the mall and going into the different stores on Woodruff road.

I moved in with my boyfriend at the end of June. It’s so weird, but I LOVE it!! 

With that said, I now work at the YMCA in Laurens. Such an amazing place to work. Love my fair bosses, and awesome coworkers. I’ve also had some wonderful babysitting opportunities this summer! Well Boyfriend’s father is over for the night, and I’ve got work at 8 in the morning, so this update will be brief. 

Until next time,


Feel the rain on your skin, no one else can feel it for you

It’s been such a long time since I’ve updated. To all my non existent readers, my apologies. Now, let’s see what I can do for an update, huh?

I still haven’t passed the PRAXIS. Ugh!!! I could just rip my hair out!! The last time I’ve taken it, was this past Saturday. I took it on paper on campus, so I won’t get the results for another three weeks. Awful, right? YES!! I don’t feel very confident about my performance on it either, so that makes everything even worse! I keep checking the website with hopes that the results are up already. Ha, I know they aren’t, but it eases my mind a little when I see it’s not up. If it’s not up,  I haven’t failed it either, right? Too bad the results are due up until a few days before the screening for the Education Department begins. If worse comes to worse though, I’ll wait until August to screen. As long as I have the praxis passed sometime before summer.

My boyfriend and I are still doing great! No engagement yet.Obviously, since I referred to him as just my boyfriend! But we’re awesome. I love him so much, and can’t wait to be his wife in a few years 🙂 I just have to no lose myself in other people’s relationships. It seems like EVERYONE is getting engaged or married…except me. Last month, we celebrated his 29th birthday! Can’t believe he was just 25 when we started dating..Time goes oh so fast! ❤

Today, for the first time in a very long time, I worked out. I went to the gym after work and it was crowded in the back. So I walked the track. And it felt good. I went with my friend/roommate, but ended up leaving her behind for a little awhile. I turned on “Unwritten” on my ipod, and just ran in the 65 degree night time sky. It felt so right, but at the same time, it felt wrong. I know what I’m doing. I’m getting that feeling I got the summer before my Freshman year of High school. The same summer when  I worked out excessively and stopped eating almost completely. They say you never completely get rid of an eating disorder, but I’m hoping mine doesn’t come back. I look down, and I see flab. EVERYWHERE. Despite what people say, I know that it is there. I SEE it for goodness-sakes! I’m just going to lose a few pounds, cut out the snacking I do throughout the day, cut out soda, and get toned. Then, I will be happy. I hope…

Two weeks ago, my school had spring break. And this time, for the first spring break ever, I went somewhere! My bestfriend/roommate, and I traveled to Savannah, Georgia. It was a four hour drive, but it was worth it. The weather was beautiful and it was just an amazing time. We took a ghost tour, but it sucked! Waste of 22$$ a piece, but now we know better. We discovered that Savannah is one of the few places in the US that allows public drinking. So, I walked the streets with my drink. Well, because I could!

A month ago I finally got those bothersome wisdom teeth out! No more nagging headaches because of them. Or worrying about them flaring up and hurting. I ended up getting dry socket from it. Which was no fault of my own! So that being said, the recovery process on that was a doozey.

Well, I think that’s really about it. I’m still working at the YMCA in the nursery, and I still love those babies! I did get a babysitting job though in December. I love the family! The mother is 36 weeks pregnant with her second daughter and I’m over joyed to be have the chance to babysit her as well as her big sissy, Ava. Who is the sweetest child to sit for. It’s weird driving around with a car-seat in my backseat, but I don’t mind it one bit.

I’ve got class in the morning however, so this post is done.

Until next time,